If I could say that again.

Had the urge to blog, and so, yeah.

I wish this would happen. Rather than to lost you forever.

I wish you were just away for a few years, then cam home back again.

Or I rather wish you were just working outstations, where you would come back and visit us sometimes.

Well, "I WISH" doesn't exist in this world. Sigh. 

All I could do now is dream of you which I seldom do. Only once after you left. :/

I couldn't say much more,

If not I would just break down again. 

stay strong, even if the world falls apart. 

you have a family to carry, a family to care, a family where it's ONLY what you have.