Miss: To discover the absence of loss of.

I miss my dad.

I feel like hugging him just for one more time, telling him not to worry about me in everything that I'm pursuing, telling him for the very last time that I Love Him very much, and also that I'm sorry for......

Sigh

I just, can't seem to forget it. Forget in the sense that not literally forget the whole incident but in the sense that I would not be influence by it any more. And recently I went to a Chinese Church Camp - 超越另一个自我. This was my first time attending a Chinese base Church camp. It was more game base as I think it is to introduce others to join.

And there was one section where we share out our thoughts and feelings. The main preacher shared first, then we were divided into groups and was to asked to share. Our teacher shared first. Their testimony/story was very touching, I was keeping my tears all the way. Till Weng Hong shared his part of his story. I felt pity for him. And then Jing Fei asked whether do I want to share, I was thinking thinking and thinking. And at last I told the teacher that I didn't feel like sharing cause, there's a reason to this. And I think I shall keep it to myself.

And at that moment, I thought about what the teacher said, to forget your past, which I think I can't handle it quite well. Sometimes I might feel great, but sometimes I don't. I always try to keep myself busy from avoiding myself to think this issues over and over again. I try my very best to avoid. That's what I did for almost 4 years, since he left. 

说来说去，我还是超越不了自己那一关。

Go beyond your limits, 

It's not as easy as talking. SIGH

Dash hopes

Yesterday was kind off, disappointing I could say. Due to some reasons, I could not attend my BM Tuition class this weekend. So, I joined the other group's class. As usual, we were given test based on a literature story we read last week and a test on idioms. So I did sort of bad, but I managed to pass though, which wasn't quite my aim, to score a perfect score. For the lit, I score 5 per 10. Which was quite critical and for the idioms I score 10 per 14. Even my tutor asked what happened to me, which practically I don't know why. She was going to question me and asked me to stay back but I managed to escape yesterday cause she needed to speak to Kenji first, what a luck huh. 

I couldn't dare to imagine what will happen next week. With my result paper some more.

Taking a driving license or BUYING one instead? (Part II)

This post originates from the one before this, (Part I) 

And as stated before, I fail the OTR test. I was rescheduled to retake the exam. The whole process of scheduling and stuff eats a month time. I plan to retake on the 29th of May, which was after the school midterms and it was a semester break. So for that, I need to pay 180 to retake the test, 40 to renew my L license, and 100 to re-practice the whole thing! See my point of view now?

Practiced, once. And then I head straight to the test! And to my surprise, I saw Yen Theng, Ming Chow, and some other ex-sentosarians. But for this time, I br*be. Cause simply I can't afford to fail, not about the money but the time needed to spare for this.

And I passed. 

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

NO MORE L! WOO HOOO

Just anxious to get to drive auto car now. Hmmmm

SO, to all those out there still in the process of getting your license, all the best of luck from me to  you. 

And I practically slacked for this term's holidays. After this holidays, time to turn over a new leaf.    make things back to normal.

FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS  FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS 

Okay, that's all for it. Bye

Taking a driving license or BUYING one instead? (Part I)

  VS

It all took place starting from December,2011. School's out and am pretty free slacking around, so I intend to hear my laws during the holidays. On the exact day  where I was supposed to make my passport, I went and sign up or I shall say, visited the driving school and enrol myself in that particular school for the whole package thing. It cost me my mum from 700-800 bucks if not mistaken.

And viola! In no time I finished hearing my law,
and it's time to take the test. Lup-Dupp Lup-Dupp Lup-Dupp, pretty nervous about that. And poof, I passed. Total number of questions is 50 and the passing mark is 42. Excluding those colour blind test and etcetera.  I got 45/50.

And the whole license thing wasn't mentioned even a tinsy bitsy until i blew the candles off my birthday cake.

And I went and hear the 6 hour so called ujian amali in order to obtain the L license. And I got it. And, ze driving lesson start.

First STOP,
I was taught with the gears and and brakes. Then U-turn and a slow head start of driving OTR. And then I was taught Side parking.
First impression, everything I learned is quite okay. Couldn't steer the steering well, got side tracked a bit. 


Second STOP,
It's kind off hard to describe it here. I'll try my best though.  I am suppose to go up a hill, on the way up, I am suppose to stop my front tyres in between the yellow line. So after I stop, I pulled my handbrake. And then I step in the accelerator and go over a bump. This is quite challenging for your left leg.

And 3 point turn. Piece of cake there.
Second impression, hopefully I'll just pass during my test!


Final STOP,
I was brought to the examination place to practice. IT turn out that everything was WAY simpler than I thought. The gradient of the hill wasn't that much, the parking was as usual and the 3 point turn is quite convincing.

As for the On The Road, we were given 2 routes to memorise. On that day the JPJ pegawai will choose either one. So yea.

Oh and one thing the test(driving) can only be taken on TUESDAY.
First semester holidays,
Went to take the test. Wasn't confident on both of sections of the test! My heart beat was beating 6 X 10^23 times faster than the usual rate. And when it's my turn, FINGERS CROSSED!

Went in and keep on practising the hand brake. And I went up the hill. And pulled my handbrake. Raised my hand. Step on the accelerator.  Go over the bump. PHEW ONE DOWN! And Parking. Da Di Dum everything was fine. And  3 point turn, easy peasy!

And then woo hoo signed everything up and got off the car. Waiting for my turn to go for the OTR(On The Road) test. The first time, I did not br*be cause my mum have issues on that. So yea. And I drove. And when I was about to finish the test, that Pegawai failed me with the reasons I'm driving too fast. MAN, it was only 30km/hr, Like, seriously? Bolt even runs faster than me MAN I go so pissed off. Ugh. It's so hard for me to spare time for this exam thingy cause its onyl available on Tuesday. And I do not want to miss any lessons in school cause firstly, I want to get the full-attendance and I HAVE CHEMISTRY LESSONS ON TUESDAY. For those taught by Mr Lim, you know I know lahh. 


To be continued, I want to watch THE LADY.

So, STAY TUNED.

Ciao